Bliss never seems to last

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So exhausted from work omg. Some how I convinced myself to leave my house at 6am in the morning so that I can get to work at 7am. I've been running on 4-6 hours of sleep 5 days a week for a month and look like this now ( =____= ) all the time. Only 2 more months to go... Hahaha...ha... Crying. Learning a ton at work as usual and honestly, I'm super pleased with how this project looks. I'll definitely throw you guys a link when it comes out! Other then that... Personal work has been really really sparse. I recently art jammed with two of my friends yesterday and it was really fun. Its nice to just vomit out drawings sometimes and not have to worry about it being production quality or feeling like it has to be perfect. Its nice...

On the flipside, general lack of sleep, work stress and ever mounting social anxiety all mixed up together has really been keeping me down. Some unresolved issues have raised its uggo head to me again and its reminiscent of my horrible 2nd year of college. I haven't felt this way in the long time... I got a rock climbing membership which includes free yoga, to hopefully get my mind off bad thoughts... (Gonna try going at least 2-3 times a week) And I'm trying to be actively doing stuff after work so I'm not left to my own thoughts lying on my bed. :C Hopefully these nasty feelings will past. I'm also looking into seeing a therapist every once in a while. Not looking for medication or anything... I think I just want to work out some of my anxiety that seems to be getting worse and at times overwhelming me. Maybe some coping techniques would be good? I dunno, do you guys see therapists? My friend is always telling me that artists should go see therapist because they are some fucked up people. Hahaha. 

Anyways. I tried to get my hair to be white today and it just ended up being silver. Haha. I guess it could be worse...
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Kinda late reply, but I've been dealing with depression and anxiety myself; I'm on medication, and omg it's insane how much better I feel! I've been able to finally get out of bed and it's amazing how much I'm getting done now! I really didn't want to get on medication, but at that point it was either that or... well.

I haven't had any therapy (too expensive omg), but I'm feeling great so far ^__^ I know medication doesn't work for everyone, but it's definitely helping me far beyond my wildest expectations :aww: I really hope you feel better soon :) :hug:

(and silver hair is awesome omg, so jealous; I'd love to dye my hair silver but I'm afraid it'd all just fall off XD - plus then the maintenance.. oh why couldn't I just have been born with it T_T)